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| I didn't fall off the face of the earth or anything. Life has been pretty crazy this past year. It's getting better though. I moved back to Omaha. Bryan's sexual addiction became too much for me to handle. He hurt me too many times and I was far too depressed to want to make it work anymore. We are getting divorced, but I have not filed yet. I don't have a job and that means I won't have medical insurance. So, for now, I will live with this small technicallity. I can't get a job because I haven't had one in two and a half years. I was a stay at home mom. Most businesses see that and say "NEXT." Ella is getting so big. She's sooooo incredibly smart. I was worried that she was going to be behind and maybe even "slow." But, she's not and that makes me so happy. She runs all over the place and talks and repeats EVERYTHING I say. It's wonderful. She's got a wonderful personallity and I just pray that I will do the right thing with her. I hope I haven't already screwed her up. I know she needs a father in her life and I hope I won't be the one to blame for that. God will work it out though. He always does.    
Prayer request of the week: That I will find a good paying full-time job that is at least semi-enjoyable...oh and has benefits. Ok, peace out :) | | |
| In my last blog I wrote about how sore I was/am...well, it was much worse the next day. I had slept in the recliner the night before because it hurt too much to sleep flat. I woke up at 8:00 because I was going to go pick up Lindy so we could go to the gym, but I was feeling horrible. My right arm was so sore that I could hardly move it. I called Lindy and told her I wasn't going to be able to go and headed for the bed to try to get some more sleep. I layed there for about 20 minutes in pain and finally decided I needed to do something about it. I called my mom to see what she thought I should do and she reminded me I have a blood clotting disorder...oh crap! duh!
So, Bryan helped me on with some clothes and I headed to the emergency room. Bryan had to stay home with Ella. I got there and I got in right away which was awesome. When I got there one of the nurses pointed out that my hand was swollen and red...not good. So I got in my room and they did some blood work. Then they did an ultrasound on my arm which was weird. The doctor came back after a while and told me I was blood clot free, but recommended I see a hematologist for my blood clotting disorder. He said I pretty much have a really really bad muscle strain.
I'm feeling much better today. I cleaned the house yesterday and I really think that helped loosen things up. I'm still a little sore, but not to the point where I can't move my appendages.
Praise God for everything! | | |
| My friend, Lindy, invited me to her gym to work out with her and so I went last night for the first time in a long time. We did a one hour continuous weight lifting type class. It totally kicked my butt and now today I can hardly walk. Every time I try to stand up or sit down I cringe in pain because my thighs hurt soooo bad. I almost can't even walk because the muscles around my knees are so week that they can hardly hold me. This morning I had to pick up Ella and I thought I was going to cry because my arms and chest muscles were so sore. We're supposed to do a Tae Bo type class tomorrow morning. Hopefully that will loosen up my muscles.
Next time I'll know not to push myself so hard. I didn't think I was doing that much because we weren't using much weight, but we were doing a lot of lunges. Anyway, my goal is to lose 70-80 pounds in 2 years. We'll see how it goes. | | |
| A few nights ago my husband and I watched one of those wife swap shows. I'm not sure which one it was b/c there are a few. Anyway, the two women who were to switch places were a Christian and then an astrologist...or something. I was so angry at the "Christian" woman by the end of the show. She was psycho! She was so judging and mean. I didn't see her do one thing she should have. She needed to love her temporary family no matter what. She kept saying they were all "dark-sided". She freaked out at the end b/c there was a non-Christian in her house. Who is she to judge? Is that her job? Hell no!
It just made me so mad. Oh! And then the poor astrologist woman had to live with the Christian family and put up with the other woman's friends. They attacked her! They asked her if she went to church and if she believed in God or if she believed in a "higher power." That poor woman didn't know what to say. If those women really cared about her they wouldn't have done that. They just wanted to make her feel like crap and condemn her.
Here's a little lesson to all my Christian friends out there: Love people! Jesus hung out with the worst people...prostitutes, adulterers...sinners. So, why can't we? God loves EVERYONE and we need to remember that. It's ok to bring non-Christians into your home. It's ok be friends with people who believe in astrology or whatever. Come on now! Quit judging and just love and share your life experiences. If someone you love happens to give their heart to God...that would be so cool. But, if not, well, they will be judged and it's not our place to do it here.
I love you all and I'm sure I offended someone...you'll just have to get over it b/c I'm not apologizing. | | |
| I know, I know...the webcam photos are getting old. Too bad! It's all I have so you'll just have to deal. Anyway, my hair is pink again! I love it. It looks more red right now, but hopefully it'll brighten up. The contrasting black is pretty rad too.
I made an "omaha" t-shirt yesterday. It's pretty cool. Geez, everything in my life is cool. lol I rock.
I sound lame. Bye! | | |
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